Yesterday was nothing short of an emotional nightmare. It's mortifying how difficult life can be without a vehicle in these mountains, when you depend upon your vehicle for work. It was just a stressful day for no other reasons than feeling the weight of my world on my shoulders in cold stark reality.The garage couldn't fix the oil leak without running up a $1,700 fee no matter how diligently they tried. They again advised me to trade the truck but without a line of credit a homeless person floundering to build a home cannot finance anything.
I was so thankful, felt so blessed, that Andy's garage AGAIN spent time on my truck trying to resolve a situation for me and never charged me a dime. There are some people you meet that you thank God for because their caring is so appreciated.Thank you God for bringing these folks into my life.
A group of us drove to Tulerosa to pick construction material I had purchased directly after buying the single wide trailer. I had left it where it was knowing that the sellers were not relocating to Nevada until December.
I could barely move a muscle. I could see impatience as I tried to move around but simply couldn't stop the physical pain from preventing normal movement. I finally joked about being "old" but inside my heart I was screaming, "I'm up all night freezing cold while you are all in warm beds, I'm so exhausted I don't know how to function or if I can function one more day. Can't you see I'm totally done in?"
But I didn't say a word. I just tried to understand that people can't understand. If you are not sleeping in the cold you can't even imagine the physical stress and the pain.
Jan, driving her Dodge350 with a flatbed trailer, was an absolute saint, Anna & Mike did all the heavy lifting, and the sellers are so much fun and full of joy they made a stressful situation enjoyable despite the hardships.
The wind had done enough damage to make the place look like a junk yard, metal roofing scattered everywhere. A tarp ripped and shredded stuck over the trailer and hanging in the tree branches. Metal coming off the trailer flopping around in the wind.
My boss kept asking me to go and pick items up, explaining that I didn't have a vehicle seems not to be understandable.
All of a sudden my own worth became questionable. You keep struggling and get nowhere and as I got into bed at 5.30 pm so cold I couldn't stop shaking. Tears ran down my face and I cried myself to sleep.
After every storm the sun will smile; for every problem there is a solution, and the soul's indefeasible duty is to be of good cheer. -William R. Alger
Jan, driving her Dodge350 with a flatbed trailer, was an absolute saint, Anna & Mike did all the heavy lifting, and the sellers are so much fun and full of joy they made a stressful situation enjoyable despite the hardships.We stopped by my property to unload and I just stood disheartened.
This was supposed to be our "dream" home. A home designed for me to live in for the rest of my life. A home my mother could stay in, the family could visit. A home that should have been ready by July 2008.
The wind had done enough damage to make the place look like a junk yard, metal roofing scattered everywhere. A tarp ripped and shredded stuck over the trailer and hanging in the tree branches. Metal coming off the trailer flopping around in the wind.
As I looked around at the total mess on a cold windy winter day the stark reality that everything is in shambles, too much destruction for me to handle hit me like a ton of bricks. The scene plummeted me into dire hopelessness. Depression simply swept over me and I didn't know which way to turn to resolve anything anymore.
My boss kept asking me to go and pick items up, explaining that I didn't have a vehicle seems not to be understandable.
All of a sudden my own worth became questionable. You keep struggling and get nowhere and as I got into bed at 5.30 pm so cold I couldn't stop shaking. Tears ran down my face and I cried myself to sleep.
After every storm the sun will smile; for every problem there is a solution, and the soul's indefeasible duty is to be of good cheer. -William R. Alger
