Bitter-Sweet Defeat

I can hardly believe that tomorrow will herald April in. For the last few weeks all the building supplies I scrimped and saved up to buy over a 2 yr period will be sold for pennies on the dollar.
This is a heartbreaking situation, and one all homeless know only too well.Follow @DeniseBundy

The stress today was almost unbearable, trying to get the deed and records out for land I put such a lot of money in, but will be sold for cents on the dollar. There is a part of me that is relieved that I am giving up hoping against hope, a part of me so sad I can barely speak. I now know that my attempts to beg Robert Huckins to return the money he stole has failed ~ and if I stay I will lose everything, including the land.

The reality is, I am so deeply hurt that any people would sit and watch a woman remain homeless struggling to recoup her home, her mother, her career from a criminal that if someone with a kind heart suddenly offered to finance a modular on that land for me.

I would refuse it.

I packed possessions all morning, but my broken fingers hurt in the worst way... and then a strange pins and needles started from my shoulder to my fingers, with the pain most severe at my elbow. I have lost 15lbs with worry this past two weeks and I so need to return to a normal lifestyle... somehow.

By late afternoon I had to run to Nogal, not returning until after dark. This all is a little surreal...
There has to be someone related to Robert & Sylve Huckins must have some means to reach them, if it be Michael Huckins, Dr.Kenneth Ogilvie ( Diana Huckins? Dominic Huckins? Malcolm Huckins? ) or Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins and get them to return ALL of the money they stole from us so that I can buy a home and get our lives back. I am begging anyone in this family for help.

I don't believe I have EVER witnessed any none violent crime that can be as devastating as stealing someone's home. I am walking in Dorothy McKeevers footsteps, day by day, month by month, year by year.

Liam Griffin, I sat in your law office with two witnesses as you gave me your promise, your guarantee, that our money would be returned before harm came to us.

Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins you were present the day I signed contract with your son. You walked out of the kitchen with Sylve Huckins and your son introduced me to you. He told you that I was the British horse trainer he had told you about, the one he was going to build the home and barn for. Why didn't you say something? There may be a rational and reasonable explanation but I have spent over 3 years, homeless, not understanding it. I understand it even less knowing that though I was a total stranger, both Dorothy McKeever and Sally Canning you KNEW, and you knew what your son had done to them and others.

Dr. Kenneth Ogilvie, I contacted you and simply asked for a reference, not knowing that Robert Huckins was your cousin. Robert Huckins had just stolen over $30,000 from the domestic violence shelter, HEAL, yet everyone was trying to hide it. There was a history of stealing large amounts of money. $65,000 PLUS from Nancy Canning. $89,000 PLUS from Dorothy McKeever, $45,000 from Francis McKinney. The list just goes on and on and on.
Because of Robert Huckins I ended up paying $140,000 to be homeless.. sat in the cold, emotionally, physically and financially broke. In the middle of a recession, with no way to recover the stolen funds.

Today Robert Huckins has his own home...
He also has OUR home.....
He also has a lot of people's money...
And his freedom.

Women are not banks or loan institutions. Women should not be the source of a retirement fund for people who don't want to do an honest day's work for an honest day's pay. Holding women hostage while playing with the judicial system, a horrendous game of cat and mouse extending YEARS, with the victims whose very homes, families and stability are in jeopardy is cruelty, as cruel as a physical beating. It is financial and emotional RAPE. Homelessness is not justice. It is a slow, painful death.
Please, I beg with everything I have within me, please convince Robert Huckins to stop this torture and return the building fund he stole from us so we too, can have a home.

Relevant pages:

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/shattered-dreams-endless-nightmare.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/paul-harvey-once-reported-if-you-want.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/who-is-robert-millard-huckins.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/so-where-is-money.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/criminal-defense-attorneys-woes.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/pen-is-mightier-than-sword.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/02/morally-bankrupt.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/06/robert-huckins-legal-plea.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/many-faces-of-abuse.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/shadow-women.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/price-of-crime.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/12/white-nothing-but-white.html
Let us stand together to make of our world a sustainable source for our future as humanity on this planet ~ Nelson Mandela

Without Hope There Is Death

Even though I was physically spent I tried to be up and around early this morning to sell what I could ~ even if it meant going at the speed of a sloth on Librium, each step a little more painful than the other.

Today was another simply delightful day. Beautiful summer like weather. I drove to and from Alto to east of Ruidoso Downs hauling boxes of possessions, and tried to get the sale-able items somewhat arranged. I never realized that I had so many Christian books, boxes after boxes of brand new books and bibles. Follow @DeniseBundy

By late afternoon I was in such pain I had to stop trying to carry the heavy boxes had to go and babysit two of the sweetest little girls , knowing that I wouldn't be back at the shed until after 2 am or 3 am. Having tried to transport everything from Alto to Ruidoso Downs I realized that this yard sale will not materialize without help, and I am too exhausted to go on. It's time to throw the towel in on trying to have a yard sale. It's wasting time when I need to get going in a different direction if I have ANY hope of surviving losing my employment, at the worst time of the year, while struggling without a home.

Why is this criminal afforded the comfort and stress free existence WE are paying for? There has to be someone related to Robert & Sylve Huckins must have some means to reach them, if it be Michael Huckins, Dr.Kenneth Ogilvie ( Diana Huckins? Dominic Huckins? Malcolm Huckins? ) or Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins and get them to return ALL of the money they stole from us so that I can buy a home and get our lives back. I am begging anyone in this family for help.

I don't believe I have EVER witnessed any none violent crime that can be as devastating as stealing someone's home. I am walking in Dorothy McKeevers footsteps, day by day, month by month, year by year.

Liam Griffin, I sat in your law office with two witnesses as you gave me your promise, your guarantee, that our money would be returned before harm came to us.

Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins you were present the day I signed contract with your son. You walked out of the kitchen with Sylve Huckins and your son introduced me to you. He told you that I was the British horse trainer he had told you about, the one he was going to build the home and barn for. Why didn't you say something? There may be a rational and reasonable explanation but I have spent over 3 years, homeless, not understanding it. I understand it even less knowing that though I was a total stranger, both Dorothy McKeever and Sally Canning you KNEW, and you knew what your son had done to them and others.

Dr. Kenneth Ogilvie, I contacted you and simply asked for a reference, not knowing that Robert Huckins was your cousin. Robert Huckins had just stolen over $30,000 from the domestic violence shelter, HEAL, yet everyone was trying to hide it. There was a history of stealing large amounts of money. $65,000 PLUS from Nancy Canning. $89,000 PLUS from Dorothy McKeever, $45,000 from Francis McKinney. The list just goes on and on and on.
Because of Robert Huckins I ended up paying $140,000 to be homeless.. sat in the cold, emotionally, physically and financially broke. In the middle of a recession, with no way to recover the stolen funds.

Today Robert Huckins has his own home...
He also has OUR home.....
He also has a lot of people's money...
And his freedom.

Women are not banks or loan institutions. Women should not be the source of a retirement fund for people who don't want to do an honest day's work for an honest day's pay. Holding women hostage while playing with the judicial system, a horrendous game of cat and mouse extending YEARS, with the victims whose very homes, families and stability are in jeopardy is cruelty, as cruel as a physical beating. It is financial and emotional RAPE. Homelessness is not justice. It is a slow, painful death.
Please, I beg with everything I have within me, please convince Robert Huckins to stop this torture and return the building fund he stole from us so we too, can have a home.

Relevant pages:

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/shattered-dreams-endless-nightmare.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/paul-harvey-once-reported-if-you-want.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/who-is-robert-millard-huckins.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/so-where-is-money.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/criminal-defense-attorneys-woes.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/pen-is-mightier-than-sword.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/02/morally-bankrupt.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/06/robert-huckins-legal-plea.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/many-faces-of-abuse.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/shadow-women.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/price-of-crime.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/12/white-nothing-but-white.html

Only the guy who isn't rowing has time to rock the boat. ~ Sartre

Why Don't You?

Panic and anxiety was overwhelming me this morning. The weather should have been exhilarating.. yet both physically and emotionally I was spent.

I started phoning to see if "any" help was available to help me move furniture and the rest of the belongings I need to sell. Time isn't a luxury I have. I'm a little unsure if people "see" or "hear." I have been homeless for four years desperately fighting to get our home and equine facility back from a criminal. Yet today I am questioning if anyone noticed ?
Follow @DeniseBundy

Last night I spoke to a friend in another state for an extensive period of time and we discusses my health. When I last saw her in person it was directly following hiring Robert Huckins.
A lot of water has gone under the bridge since then.

I explained to her that I'm not the same person. I simply can't do the physical things I was capable of then. Something has happened to me that I don't understand, yet I am trying to.

I couldn't move. I was in so much pain, especially my spine and hips, I am crippled up. I have no idea what my physical capabilities would be if I was in a comfortable home, I only know what sleeping outside for four years has resulted in.

For most of the morning and early afternoon, with so much work to do, all I could do was take heavy duty pain medication and try to sleep. The broken fingers on my left hand are now swollen and grey colored, and too painful to use anymore. Jan suddenly phoned and offered help to move the furniture, and a possible but not concrete lead to a buyer for the land our hopes and dreams shattered on.

Perhaps God is going to pull me out of this at the 12th hour. I pray so because I can hear that second hand ticking away.

There has to be someone related to Robert & Sylve Huckins must have some means to reach them, if it be Michael Huckins, Dr.Kenneth Ogilvie ( Diana Huckins? Dominic Huckins? Malcolm Huckins? ) or Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins and get them to return ALL of the money they stole from us so that I can buy a home and get our lives back. I am begging anyone in this family for help.

I don't believe I have EVER witnessed any none violent crime that can be as devastating as stealing someone's home. I am walking in Dorothy McKeevers footsteps, day by day, month by month, year by year.

Liam Griffin, I sat in your law office with two witnesses as you gave me your promise, your guarantee, that our money would be returned before harm came to us.

Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins you were present the day I signed contract with your son. You walked out of the kitchen with Sylve Huckins and your son introduced me to you. He told you that I was the British horse trainer he had told you about, the one he was going to build the home and barn for. Why didn't you say something? There may be a rational and reasonable explanation but I have spent over 3 years, homeless, not understanding it. I understand it even less knowing that though I was a total stranger, both Dorothy McKeever and Sally Canning you KNEW, and you knew what your son had done to them and others.

Dr. Kenneth Ogilvie, I contacted you and simply asked for a reference, not knowing that Robert Huckins was your cousin. Robert Huckins had just stolen over $30,000 from the domestic violence shelter, HEAL, yet everyone was trying to hide it. There was a history of stealing large amounts of money. $65,000 PLUS from Nancy Canning. $89,000 PLUS from Dorothy McKeever, $45,000 from Francis McKinney. The list just goes on and on and on.
Because of Robert Huckins I ended up paying $140,000 to be homeless.. sat in the cold, emotionally, physically and financially broke. In the middle of a recession, with no way to recover the stolen funds.

Today Robert Huckins has his own home...
He also has OUR home.....
He also has a lot of people's money...
And his freedom.

Women are not banks or loan institutions. Women should not be the source of a retirement fund for people who don't want to do an honest day's work for an honest day's pay. Holding women hostage while playing with the judicial system, a horrendous game of cat and mouse extending YEARS, with the victims whose very homes, families and stability are in jeopardy is cruelty, as cruel as a physical beating. It is financial and emotional RAPE. Homelessness is not justice. It is a slow, painful death.
Please, I beg with everything I have within me, please convince Robert Huckins to stop this torture and return the building fund he stole from us so we too, can have a home.

Relevant pages:

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/shattered-dreams-endless-nightmare.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/paul-harvey-once-reported-if-you-want.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/who-is-robert-millard-huckins.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/so-where-is-money.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/criminal-defense-attorneys-woes.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/pen-is-mightier-than-sword.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/02/morally-bankrupt.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/06/robert-huckins-legal-plea.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/many-faces-of-abuse.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/shadow-women.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/price-of-crime.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/12/white-nothing-but-white.html
He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away.~Raymond Hull

I Need Proof That God Still Cares

Last night was an excruciatingly painful night. No matter how many times I moved I couldn't stop the pain, and in the middle of the night the constant agony and stress started a violent migraine.

Those who know what chronic pain feels like understand when you get to a point where your body feeling like it doesn't belong to you. It's painful baggage that weighs you down ~ and you want it to go away.Follow @DeniseBundy

Over the past few days I have lifted, carried, pulled, dragged dozens of 60 lbs, 70 lbs, 80 lbs and 100 lbs boxes and footlockers and I have not found a way to even start on the appliances and furniture.

The weather was simply fabulous, very summer like, beautiful blue skies. And the forecast promises that this will continue through Monday. I could not have had nicer weather to have an estate sale.

I started out loading boxes again, but after an hour I had no choice but to stop. So I turned my attention to the yard sale signs that became an obstacle to overcome. Without pens or markers I grabbed some paint and started writing with a 9 inch nail, enamel paint and cardboard. I would have been wiser to let my grand-children do it. *G*

Before noon I decided to try and tackle the furniture. One overstuffed chair refused to move under my physical ability. Frustration doesn't even start to describe this.

I didn't stop until after dark, but it's become painfully clear that despite all of my attempts to have a yard sale starting tomorrow I am going to be unable to make that a reality .... and time in ticking away.

I telephoned a friend while feeling so depressed and defeated. I have appliances and furniture scattered all over, and no help to gather everything up. No women should have to support a career criminal at this type of expense and hardship. I could never, in my wildest dreams, watch human beings go through what we have gone though ~ it would not be possible for me to turn away from such cruelty with no conscience~ and I pray I never will be able to.

There has to be someone related to Robert & Sylve Huckins must have some means to reach them, if it be Michael Huckins, Dr.Kenneth Ogilvie ( Diana Huckins? Dominic Huckins? Malcolm Huckins? ) or Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins and get them to return ALL of the money they stole from us so that I can buy a home and get our lives back. I am begging anyone in this family for help.

I don't believe I have EVER witnessed any none violent crime that can be as devastating as stealing someone's home. I am walking in Dorothy McKeevers footsteps, day by day, month by month, year by year.

Liam Griffin, I sat in your law office with two witnesses as you gave me your promise, your guarantee, that our money would be returned before harm came to us.

Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins you were present the day I signed contract with your son. You walked out of the kitchen with Sylve Huckins and your son introduced me to you. He told you that I was the British horse trainer he had told you about, the one he was going to build the home and barn for. Why didn't you say something? There may be a rational and reasonable explanation but I have spent over 3 years, homeless, not understanding it. I understand it even less knowing that though I was a total stranger, both Dorothy McKeever and Sally Canning you KNEW, and you knew what your son had done to them and others.

Dr. Kenneth Ogilvie, I contacted you and simply asked for a reference, not knowing that Robert Huckins was your cousin. Robert Huckins had just stolen over $30,000 from the domestic violence shelter, HEAL, yet everyone was trying to hide it. There was a history of stealing large amounts of money. $65,000 PLUS from Nancy Canning. $89,000 PLUS from Dorothy McKeever, $45,000 from Francis McKinney. The list just goes on and on and on.
Because of Robert Huckins I ended up paying $140,000 to be homeless.. sat in the cold, emotionally, physically and financially broke. In the middle of a recession, with no way to recover the stolen funds.

Today Robert Huckins has his own home...
He also has OUR home.....
He also has a lot of people's money...
And his freedom.

Women are not banks or loan institutions. Women should not be the source of a retirement fund for people who don't want to do an honest day's work for an honest day's pay. Holding women hostage while playing with the judicial system, a horrendous game of cat and mouse extending YEARS, with the victims whose very homes, families and stability are in jeopardy is cruelty, as cruel as a physical beating. It is financial and emotional RAPE. Homelessness is not justice. It is a slow, painful death.
Please, I beg with everything I have within me, please convince Robert Huckins to stop this torture and return the building fund he stole from us so we too, can have a home.

Relevant pages:

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/shattered-dreams-endless-nightmare.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/paul-harvey-once-reported-if-you-want.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/who-is-robert-millard-huckins.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/so-where-is-money.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/criminal-defense-attorneys-woes.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2010/06/pen-is-mightier-than-sword.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/02/morally-bankrupt.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/06/robert-huckins-legal-plea.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/many-faces-of-abuse.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/shadow-women.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/07/price-of-crime.html

http://roberthuckinsvictim.blogspot.com/2011/12/white-nothing-but-white.html
You will get all you want in life if you help enough other people get what they want. ~ Zig Ziglar