Friday, December 2, 2011

****White, Nothing But White****

To say that it's white outside is a major understatement. Solid ice as far as the eye can see. The Sierra Blanca is hidden behind a dense white fog.

I just couldn't move when I woke up. Every part of my body was frozen solid, and my nose had icicles on it. It took me forever to find the energy just to put the coffee maker on. My fingers seemed totally useless, my feet frozen blocks and my mind had turned off trying to evade or deny the pain.Working today is impossible. The bitter cold is just too frigid to function, and breathing became labored. This was going to be a day of trying to keep warm. Trying to survive adverse conditions. By late afternoon the shed had disappeared in the wet frigid fog, so thick I could barely find the door walking. I am so pitifully cold.

No woman victim of crime should ever have been allowed to go through what Dorothy and I have been through. It is abuse and cruelty to an extreme. Yet I still question what those homeless people do who don't have a shed for a semblance of cover are going to do. Who don't have a vehicle they can crawl into. Who don't have a job, income or food. And it pains me fiercely.
While speaking with someone yesterday I made the comment that I know what people feel like when they near the point of suicide having lost everything, and I heard a gasp as though this reaction was so abnormal. It's actually quite normal. The normal reaction to abnormal circumstances.
According to many suicide prevention centers, otherwise healthy and functioning but suicidal people are generally feeling one of two things: more pain (emotional or physical) than they can handle, or more overwhelmed by things, emotions and situations than they have the resources to cope with. The conclusion of many of the studies is that "feeling trapped, hopeless and helpless" is part of what drives the homeless to suicide.
Human beings are only programmed to take so much abuse and neglect. It is simple understanding of human emotions. The pain and suffering can become so extreme that going one more day is almost unthinkable. It is unrealistic to expect healthy human beings to be tortured for prolonged periods of time, let alone the elderly, disabled etc.

Tonight people will be outside, homeless, forgotten, surrounded by warm homes, flaming fireplaces, holiday cheer and families getting ready for the Christmas holidays. A few of those homeless people may not wake up tomorrow morning.That is a truth no one should be allowed to ignore.
There has to be someone related to Robert & Sylve Huckins must have some means to reach them, if it be Michael Huckins, Dr.Kenneth Ogilvie ( Diana Huckins? Dominic Huckins? Malcolm Huckins? ) or Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins and get them to return ALL of the money they stole from us so that I can buy a home and get our lives back. I am begging anyone in this family for help.

I don't believe I have EVER witnessed any none vio
lent crime that can be as devastating as stealing someone's home. I am walking in Dorothy McKeevers footsteps, day by day, month by month, year by year.

Liam Griffin, I sat in your law office with two witnesses as you gave me your promise, your guarantee, that our money would be returned before harm came to us.

Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins you were present the day I signed contract with your son. You walked out of the kitchen with Sylve Huckins and your son introduced me to you. He told you that I was the British horse trainer he had told you about, the one he was going to build the home and barn for. Why didn't you say something? There may be a rational and reasonable explanation but I have spent over 3 years, homeless, not understanding it. I understand it even less knowing that though I was a total stranger, both Dorothy McKeever and Sally Canning you KNEW, and you knew what your son had done to them and others.

Dr. Kenneth Ogilvie, I contacted you and simply asked f
or a reference, not knowing that Robert Huckins was your cousin. Robert Huckins had just stolen over $30,000 from the domestic violence shelter, HEAL, yet everyone was trying to hide it. There was a history of stealing large amounts of money. $65,000 PLUS from Nancy Canning. $89,000 PLUS from Dorothy McKeever, $45,000 from Francis McKinney. The list just goes on and on and on.
Because of Robert Huckins I ended up paying
$140,000 to be homeless.. sat in the cold, emotionally, physically and financially broke. In the middle of a recession, with no way to recover the stolen funds.

Today Robert Huckins has his own home...
He also has OUR home.....
He also has a lot of people's money...
And his freedom.

Women are not banks or loan institutions. Women should not be the source of a retirement fund for people who don't want to do an honest day's work for an honest day's pay. Holding women hostage while playing with the judicial system, a horrendous game of cat and mouse extending YEARS, with the victims whose very homes, families and stability are in jeopardy is cruelty, as cruel as a physical beating. It is financial and emotional RAPE. Homelessness is not justice. It is a slow, painful death.
Please, I beg with everything I have within me, pl
ease convince Robert Huckins to stop this torture and return the building fund he stole from us so we too, can have a home.

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One of the ill effects of cruelty is that it makes the bystanders cruel~ Thomas Fowell Buxton