Wednesday, December 28, 2011

She's Broken, He's Okay

Trying to find the energy to face this day became a chore unto itself. I fell asleep fairly early last night, but a migraine plagued me all night and was waiting to greet me when I opened my eyes before sunrise.

It took a few hours to get my stomach from churning over, and even though the pounding behind my eyes decreased ~ it refused to go away. Very, very ill this morning and so sincerely exhausted.

By noon I was in a full fledged panic attack about my finances. Or lack of. This is a hair raising situation.. trying to tread water while homeless, terribly ill, in the midst of a serious recession/depression I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.

People with homes don't have a clue the widespread hardship being homeless causes. I have even tried to "sell" my court judgement to come up with the funds to get a home. This is a continual nightmare with no end in sight.The temperature rose into the upper 50's allowing me to start washing again, but I'm a long way from being able to get to my own bedding.. which now looks like it came from a junk yard.

It's so hard living in a shed.. because all you can do is camp. You can't stop the dirt, flooding, mold, mildew and the inhumane living conditions because it is what it is... a garden shed, not an insulated home designed to reside in.

The snow at this elevation is now slush during the afternoon, still solid ice in the morning. Hopefully I will not feel this ill tomorrow.

As evening came a high wind started up and even though the temperature was still higher than we have experienced it felt bitter cold. I'm not looking forward to tonight.

One of the homeless advocates on twitter reminded me of this scripture today: "Those who mock the poor insult their Maker; those who rejoice at the misfortune of others will be punished. -Proverbs 17:5"There has to be someone related to Robert &Sylve Huckins must have some means to reach them, if it be Michael Huckins, Dr.Kenneth Ogilvie ( Diana Huckins? Dominic Huckins? Malcolm Huckins? ) or Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins and get them to return ALL of the money they stole from us so that I can buy a home and get our lives back. I am begging anyone in this family for help.

I don't believe I have EVER witnessed any none vio
lent crime that can be as devastating as stealing someone's home. I am walking in Dorothy McKeevers footsteps, day by day, month by month, year by year.

Liam Griffin, I sat in your law office with two witnesses as you gave me your promise, your guarantee, that our money would be returned before harm came to us.

Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins you were present the day I signed contract with your son. You walked out of the kitchen with Sylve Huckins and your son introduced me to you. He told you that I was the British horse trainer he had told you about, the one he was going to build the home and barn for. Why didn't you say something? There may be a rational and reasonable explanation but I have spent over 3 years, homeless, not understanding it. I understand it even less knowing that though I was a total stranger, both Dorothy McKeever and Sally Canning you KNEW, and you knew what your son had done to them and others.

Dr. Kenneth Ogilvie, I contacted you and simply asked f
or a reference, not knowing that Robert Huckins was your cousin. Robert Huckins had just stolen over $30,000 from the domestic violence shelter, HEAL, yet everyone was trying to hide it. There was a history of stealing large amounts of money. $65,000 PLUS from Nancy Canning. $89,000 PLUS from Dorothy McKeever, $45,000 from Francis McKinney. The list just goes on and on and on.
Because of Robert Huckins I ended up paying
$140,000 to be homeless.. sat in the cold, emotionally, physically and financially broke. In the middle of a recession, with no way to recover the stolen funds.

Today Robert Huckins has his own home...
He also has OUR home.....
He also has a lot of people's money...
And his freedom.

Women are not banks or loan institutions. Women should not be the source of a retirement fund for people who don't want to do an honest day's work for an honest day's pay. Holding women hostage while playing with the judicial system, a horrendous game of cat and mouse extending YEARS, with the victims whose very homes, families and stability are in jeopardy is cruelty, as cruel as a physical beating. It is financial and emotional RAPE. Homelessness is not justice. It is a slow, painful death.
Please, I beg with everything I have within me, pl
ease convince Robert Huckins to stop this torture and return the building fund he stole from us so we too, can have a home.

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Anxiety is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind. If encouraged, it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained. ~ Arthur Somers Roche