Monday, February 20, 2012

Presidents Day

I woke up this morning with a violent migraine after a fitful, uneasy, night. That turned into stomach ache and chest pains. I feel so deathly ill today. Last night was the first time in over a week I had slept on clean blankets, blankets not caked in mud, but I was so worried I never had the ability to enjoy it.

The old microwave I received from Jan stopped working. I was more than a tad bit upset when the cup of coffee sat there for 20 minutes as cold as ice while I tried every trick in the book to get the microwave working again. Sadly it either couldn't or wouldn't co-operate. Another one bites the dust. It's difficult trying to run electronics when the electricity source is so poor, and each time you plug something in it blows out the fuses.

It's now been 4 weeks of not knowing if I am going to have to leave this shed, wondering how to get a pay check generated. Of wondering how to store all of my belongings ~ or if this is the final step to losing everything and being able to hold onto nothing.

My nerves are absolutely shot. So shot I can't even speak without stammering, can't hold anything without shaking and my heart is racing to such a degree I feel like I have run a marathon.

We Are Visible asked:
Yesterday I got into a conversation with a couple of people who didn't understand why homeless folks go through gear faster than they realized. I said that one of the reasons for this is because our gear doesn't get put into storage when "camping season" is over therefore it gets more use. What in your experience has to be replaced more often than not?
My answer would be hope, patience, your faith wears thin, but I suspect that isn't the answer they were looking for. Everything gets so dirty and stays dirty that it's hard to single out one item, or a selection of items. Homelessness sucks. It's terribly expensive. The financial cost of homelessness is outrageous, the emotional cost is unfathomable. You spin wheels.. getting nowhere. You are no longer a human being with human needs ~ you simply don't exist.

The temperature was in the 40's and no matter how much I tried to work in the sunshine I couldn't get warm. Inside the shed the wind came in through cracks and crevices. I remained chilled to the bone. Rio, Gracie and Katie may not have wanted to sleep all day... but that is exactly what I needed to do. Sleep off the awful migraine and sickness.

By late afternoon I was so frustrated I phoned my youngest daughter and asked her to check into producing designer t-shirts and hoodies to sell wholesale. There has to be an answer somewhere seeing as those who have our building fund refuse to relinquish it.
U.S. Interagency Council on Homelessness
International Freedom Coalition
Update: Rhode Island lawmakers have taken notice and introduced a Homeless Bill of Rights as a result of this push.

Join us in spreading the movement throughout the United States and around the world!

Our 7-month critical study of one shelt
er system revealed a verbally, mentally, and emotionally abusive service culture that:

-- steers individuals into impoverished neighborhoods,
-- increases the length of stay in the shelter, and thus
-- increases the cost burden for taxpayers and donors.

Consequently, many of the 1.6 million
unemployed professionals, middle-class families displaced by foreclosure, and underemployed low-wage workers currently experiencing homelessness may be subject to the same treatment. The 6 million more Americans currently "doubled up" with friends or relatives are at-risk of becoming homeless and also experiencing this discrimination and abuse.

Don't let this happen to you, your family members, friends, or co-workers.

Tell the United States Interagency Council on Homelessness that a Bill of Rights for the Homeless is
needed now to:

-- protect the humanity of all Americans,
-- help people return to self-sufficiency quicker, and
-- ultimately save taxpayers a portion of the nearly $2.9 billion spent for federal homeless programs.

Fair treatment with dignity and respect is a documented and legislated human and civil right outside of the shelter system. People experiencing homelessness need these same protec
There has to be someone related to Robert & Sylve Huckins must have some means to reach them, if it be Michael Huckins, Dr.Kenneth Ogilvie ( Diana Huckins? Dominic Huckins? Malcolm Huckins? ) or Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins and get them to return ALL of the money they stole from us so that I can buy a home and get our lives back. I am begging anyone in this family for help.

I don't believe I have EVER witnessed any none vio
lent crime that can be as devastating as stealing someone's home. I am walking in Dorothy McKeevers footsteps, day by day, month by month, year by year.

Liam Griffin, I sat in your law office with two witnesses as you gave me your promise, your guarantee, that our money would be returned before harm came to us.

Patricia Ogilvie-Huckins you were present the day I signed contract with your son. You walked out of the kitchen with Sylve Huckins and your son introduced me to you. He told you that I was the British horse trainer he had told you about, the one he was going to build the home and barn for. Why didn't you say something? There may be a rational and reasonable explanation but I have spent over 3 years, homeless, not understanding it. I understand it even less knowing that though I was a total stranger, both Dorothy McKeever and Sally Canning you KNEW, and you knew what your son had done to them and others.

Dr. Kenneth Ogilvie, I contacted you and simply asked f
or a reference, not knowing that Robert Huckins was your cousin. Robert Huckins had just stolen over $30,000 from the domestic violence shelter, HEAL, yet everyone was trying to hide it. There was a history of stealing large amounts of money. $65,000 PLUS from Nancy Canning. $89,000 PLUS from Dorothy McKeever, $45,000 from Francis McKinney. The list just goes on and on and on.
Because of Robert Huckins I ended up paying
$140,000 to be homeless.. sat in the cold, emotionally, physically and financially broke. In the middle of a recession, with no way to recover the stolen funds.

Today Robert Huckins has his own home...
He also has OUR home.....
He also has a lot of people's money...
And his freedom.

Women are not banks or loan institutions. Women should not be the source of a retirement fund for people who don't want to do an honest day's work for an honest day's pay. Holding women hostage while playing with the judicial system, a horrendous game of cat and mouse extending YEARS, with the victims whose very homes, families and stability are in jeopardy is cruelty, as cruel as a physical beating. It is financial and emotional RAPE. Homelessness is not justice. It is a slow, painful death.
Please, I beg with everything I have within me, pl
ease convince Robert Huckins to stop this torture and return the building fund he stole from us so we too, can have a home.

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Happiness and moral duty are inseparably connected. ~ George Washington